Welcome to my world. A world of good friends, crazy stories, & your daily dose of me. My Name is Sam, I am a junior in High School working my way to graduating early and going off to college in the "Big City". That's right, I want to go to New York. Well maybe Seattle. Or ya know I heard New Jersey was nice.
My point is I've had a dream ever since I was a young girl of going away to college, for psychology, or the arts. I have never really been a big "school type" of person. I've always strayed away from large crowds and wanted to be my own person. I never liked going to football games, or playing sports many others would play. I always dreamed of living somewhere busy where I could get lost in the crowd and still be myself.
My point is I've had a dream ever since I was a young girl of going away to college, for psychology, or the arts. I have never really been a big "school type" of person. I've always strayed away from large crowds and wanted to be my own person. I never liked going to football games, or playing sports many others would play. I always dreamed of living somewhere busy where I could get lost in the crowd and still be myself.
My home life, isn't all that great. My parents are always yelling, my sister is always picking fights with me, I am usually hiding in my bedroom away from all the screaming and fighting. I figure if I hide that maybe one day they'll forget I'm even here. Sometimes I really hope they do. It's so weird to go to a friends house and see them interact, there's no yelling, there's no screaming, nobody is fighting or bickering. Just calm. Very different than my own household of course.
My mother keeps asking why my friends don't come over anymore. I think and refer back to that time, my now current best friend stayed the night and my mother came home from work at 5 in the morning and yelled at me telling me " YOU ARE AN ANCHOR AND YOU WEIGH ME DOWN!" I suppose that shouldn't scare off anyone in her mind. It's a surprise even to myself that I haven't runaway yet. Although I think about getting out of here more than anything I fear my parents and being alone more than anything.
I am currently fast tracking my high school classes so I can graduate early and go to college, which my dad is totally supportive of. My mom on the other hand.... not so much. She wants me to stay local for college. You see I've come to a stern realization of why my three older brothers have moved so far away. It's hard to get out and be yourself immediately but, I am ready to start my life, I'm ready to take on the responsibilities an adult has.
I want to be ready for the world, Here I come.
